“No!” you want to scream, “How could this have happened?
This wasn’t supposed to happen!
Not to her!
Not to him!
Not to me!
Not to our family!”
Denial, and an urge to turn back time and somehow prevent the tragedy that has just blindsided you, are common and expected reactions to the unexpected death of a loved one. Loss in and of itself is difficult to experience, let alone accept; the suddenness of a loss compounds the painful emotions, leaving loved ones reeling even more.
Many life-changing events have ample warning, or time to anticipate the shift and begin thinking about what life will be like after the change takes place. Marriage, a new baby, a new job, a move – from the welcome and chosen changes to those that are not, we try to brace ourselves to face new challenges. Mental preparation allows us to process, at least in part, what is coming. What we are trying to accomplish in advance is the acceptance of our new reality. We appreciate the time it takes to realize that our daily existence is no longer going to feel familiar, but will be new and different. This novelty usually comes with trepidation over how we will react and cope. Picturing scenarios in our minds about how the newness will feel makes it less anxiety-inducing, because these mental images make the change feel more familiar and recognizable.
That is why unexpected traumas are all the more difficult to deal with: there is no mental “getting our feet wet” process in imagining how life might feel afterward. All of a sudden our reality changes without warning, and we feel lost, out of control, like we’ve suddenly been crushed. Coupled with the common grief emotions of sadness and anger, there is also often an overwhelming sense of fear of the future, which complicates our bereavement process.
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Finding someone or something to blame, or even blaming the deceased themselves, is a common response to unexpected loss, but it also comes from needing to exert control in what feels like a world spinning out of control. We want our predictability back; we want to be able to say, “This shouldn’t happen if we do X and Y”. The reality is that while we live in a world where many actions have foreseeable outcomes, and we should plan accordingly, that does not mean we have absolute control or that pieces we do control compose the entire puzzle. Do we think that we are that much in control that this tragedy really would have been avoided if we had changed that one detail, when the tragedy was the result of an unfathomable number of details?
In order to come to accept the tragedy, many people look for meaning in the loss itself. This has the potential to be therapeutic, when the mourners are able to see some opportunity for growth or special lessons for life in the loss of their loved one. However, when the loss seems senseless, or simply when meaning in the loss is hard to find in the maelstrom of sadness, Judaism teaches us to look for the meaning in the life of the departed person. Because every person was specifically created by God to exist in this world, no matter at what time or for how long, every person’s life has significance. While we cannot control or even understand all of the workings of this world, this much is clear to us: no tragic end, however unexpected, can take away from the impact of a person’s relationships and imprint on the world, which are timeless and everlasting.
About the authors
Rabbi Jay Lyons has extensive experience in Jewish afterlife care. As an expert in the laws and traditions of tahara, he provides training to chevros kadisha, Jewish burial societies, throughout the country. Rabbi Lyons is the director of the South Florida Jewish Cemetery, a non-profit certified green cemetery. Dr. Jordanna Lyons, Psy.D. is a licensed clinical psychologist. Dr. Lyons received her undergraduate degree from Harvard University and her doctorate from the Ferkauf Graduate School of Psychology of Yeshiva University. A dynamic husband-and-wife team, the Lyonses live with their children in Boca Raton, Florida where they serve the community bringing support framed by Jewish wisdom to grieving families.